I'm Not Perfect

Dear Prince Charming,

I hope you know that I'm not perfect. Sure, I'm beautiful, talented, optimistic, and an overall pretty good person... But I have flaws, too. Just like everyone else.

For example:
I'm defensive. I'm working on not jumping into the defensive mode as quickly. But if someone brings something up, like, say, I'm too young to get married, my first reaction is generally to defend myself. Like they're attacking me about it. Which, really, usually they aren't. I need to work on that.

I'm explain-y. It almost goes hand in hand with the defensive. Sometimes when I respond/apologize, I don't just leave it off where it should. I go into depth where it's not really needed. I'm trying to work on this too.

I'm critical of myself. I'm too hard on myself sometimes, beat myself up over small things that I should let go more easily. Something I could wave away as insignificant in another person I constantly nag at myself for.

I push people away sometimes. I'm stubborn, don't accept gifts very well usually (I'm beginning to learn this may not be as big of a problem with you, but I don't like lots of money being spent on me. Especially when I know finances should be going elsewhere), I get impatient sometimes, and there are definitely times that I have to hold my temper in. I'm also forgetful, easily distracted, sometimes clutter-y, sometimes klutzy, I don't read my scriptures or pray quite as often as I should, I'm a little TOO optimistic sometimes, I feel inadequate for all of the things I have before me, and sometimes I could use just a little more faith.

My biggest concern is how similar I am to my mom. While this is GREAT in many instances, there are a few attributes I don't want to carry on. Learning how to break cycles in a family is difficult, though, so I will fail along the way. I just hope that you will be patient with me, forgive me, and find nice ways to tell me when I need to work on something.

See, I don't admire many of those traits in myself. So I am trying to work on them. But when you're learning how to develop positive traits in place of the negative,  you struggle at first. I'm working towards Eternal Progression.

I don't expect you to be perfect, so I sure hope you'll be patient & tolerant with me. As long as we work together, we can do this.

Love Always,
Your Princess
A Damsel with Flaws